cube pker ape salah kte yg lalu~~

hye my dear bloggy!!! cian kt ko an asal ak marah geram ak lpas kan kat ko kan...nasib ko la sme gak mcm ak nie...nasib x bek sgt pown.....hehehe tp ak setia pada yg 1..dont worry..kecuali klu ske sgt cri pasal ngn ak..wat bende yg ak x ske kan...mmg ko...ntah le..tp ak tau ko bek..hehehe..so entry ak ari nie knp ak ckp "cube pker ape salah kte yg lalu" sbb mcm nie cite nye......

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dulu ak pown bercinta gak...tp ak rase mmg nasib ak slalu mcm 2 la kot....bercinta 2 rase happy jp je x lame....ak pown x tau mane silap ak...so ak pker punye pker..mmg de silap ak kat die....

1) ak nie mule2 bukan la seorg yg mengongkong..cume x de kepercyaan setelah ditipu bnyk kali.

2) ak bukan ske sgt berkepit nie tp at least ak tau keadaan org yg ak syg 2...bukan ak mintak ko msg ak 24/7

3) bg ak ko la salah sbb ajar ak dok berkepit je ngn ko an....mule2 bercinta mcm 2 la..lpas dh rimas ngn perangai ak ko bla la mcm 2 an..x leh bwk laki tau lelaki mcm nie.....hahaha

4) ak nie terlalu bg harapan kat ko mcm " oh ko la bakal suami ku" tp sebalik nye...hampeh!!

5) ak nie kuat tau jeles...bese la..name pown syg kan..jeles melampau2 la...tp ak tau nk phm org lg mcm ne...

6) ko mintak ak phm ko tp ko x phm ak mmg x dpt la der ak nk phm ko....ko pijak pale ak mcm 2 je asal ak  x leh plak kan......

7) slagi ko tau nk jge perasaan ak...slame 2 gak ak kan jge perasaan ko....

yeah!!! nie la semua salah2 ak......siap ak bg tau knp ak jd mcm 2.....

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ak pling benci klu ko tipu ak bulat2....mmg bg ak "its orite ika....sbb ko akan rase x lame lg..mungkin bukan ngn ak tp ngn pmpn len..kompem ak kate ko akan rase ape yg ak rase....." tp once ko cri ak blik ko tau pe yg ko dpt ak akan bahan ko ckup2. biar ko tau sakitnye hati ak..ak nk ko merana gak mcm ne ak rase....(pendendam x?) hahaha...tp nie ak yg dulu....ak skunk ok je...terime seadaanye..sbb ak rase ak x berhak pown......

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ak bukan nk cite pasal slh ak je...ak nk cite pasal slah mamat yg ditgglkan awek nye....lpas 2 kapel ngn ak..ak nie jenis cian kat org..dh die cite awek die p cri org len ak nie x de la nk wat mcm 2 kat die..pasdal nye ak bukan la mcm 2 org nye....tp kdg2 ak terpeker la..knp awek die 2 tggl kan die....sbb nye perangai ko sendiri.....x tau nk jge hati..ko pentingkan diri ko tau x....2 sbb die cri len...ko x yah nk slah kan die la....ngn ak mmg la ko bg alasan bz keje....dak student x sme mcm org keje....ello beb...ak pown penah keje.....ak dh penah rase penat mcm ko ckp 2...sbb 2 ak leh phm ko...mmg manusia nie lain2....tp ak leh pker nk jge hati n perasan org tau...ko pker ko punye penat je..abes yg ak bce chat ko 2 " hye" p: assalamualaikum hye" n than bla3....lpas 2 ko leh ckp " ak bosan la" eh ko nie cite ngn ak len plak...ko ckit punye bz kat opis 2..x de mase nk msg ak ke pe ke.....ko ingat ak x bengang ke ape??

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ak ckp kat ko la ek..untung dpt ak dr dpt org len..lg serabut ko tau x.....ak nie lurus bendol...ko ckp mcm nie ke mcm 2 ke ak follow je....tp ko x tau ak hormat ko!!! ak x nk bg beban kat ko!!! tp ko x penah phm ak kan....x pe la...mmg ak dh bese pown mcm nie...kdg2 ak pker nyesal dowh kapel..dulu ak sorg2 ak x rase sakit dh...tenang je jiwa ak...knp ak syg ko ek?? syg sgt2...ak pown x tau...btol la org kate syg 2 kte x leh nk gmbrkan n x leh nk ckp mcm ne pown...tp ko syg ke kat ak...ke ak je sibuk syg kat ko....ntah le...pape pown lpas nie ak berserah je la.....de jodoh de la kan,...x de pown ak x kesah dh hidup sengsorg pown x pe....

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ak x tau sgt masak tp ak blaja sbb ko....ak tau masak tp x de la pro sgt....tp ak blaja sbb nk amik hati ko la...ko ske kan pmpn pndai masak kan..sbb ak x ske ko sebut pasal XGF ko 2....ak masak kan rendang ayam tok ko..ak  x penah masak tp alhamdulillah ko hargai la gak kan...ko kate sedap rendang 2...sbb ak masak ak ingat" yess ak nk masak tok die..sedap2 punye biar die ingat ak je" ha..smpai mcm 2 ko tau....ehm ntah la...kdg2 kte sggup wat pe je tok org yg kte syg tp jgn la mintak balasan sbb sakit yg kte akan dpt....ak x nk pape...ak just nk ko phm ak....jujur ngn ak....syg ak...ak x nk pape...

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ak x larang ko nk berkawan tp jgn wat ak mcm nie sbb ak x ske...x ske sgt2....tlong...plz....mcm ne lg ak nk ckp sbb ape yg ak ckp ko x kn dgr..sbb ko rase ko je yg btol...ak nie mcm budak2 kan..jeles x tentu hale....tp ntah la...klu ak nie nk sakit kan hati ko..ak leh je nk msg XBF ak sbb dieorg je leh layan ak ble ak bosan..tp ak ingat pe yg ko ckp..." jgn la msg dieorg lg" " jgn la layan dieorg lg" ko tau x ak ske sgt ko ckp mcm 2 sbb ak rase mcm dihargai....rase mcm di carring je.....so sbb 2 ak ikut ckp ko..ak x contact lgnsung...klu de pown ak cite kat ko ape yg dioerg borak ngn ak....skit pown ak x sorok kan dari ko...sbb ak rase ko de hak nk tau...tp ko??....sbb 2 ak ckp jgn salah kan ak klu ak pker bukan2 tuduh ko bukan2 sbb ko yg nk mcm 2......

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ak harap la 1 day ko akan phm ak........=(

sorry sy ssh nk lupe........

hai my dear bloggy!!! good morning..moga ari nie lebih bek dr smlm kan.....bgn pg kene senyum...senaman gak 2..hehehehe

knp tajuk entry  dis time mcm 2 ek....?? nk tau knp..jom ...nk ngadu nie...x tau nk ngadu kat spe dh...=(

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2,3 ari nie kteorg nk gado je keje nye....tp org kate x gado x best gak kan...hehehe...bleh mengajar kte tentang kesabaran, n toleransi....hehehe..tp kdg2 ape yg dikatekan x leh nk lupe...(fobia) ssh nk lupe smpai x leh tido mlm...walaupon ape yg dikte 2 kte just bce bukan dgr...

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die kate ak x tau layan die...hakikat nye mcm nie --------------> ak sje layan die mcm 2..sbb ak x ske mak ak pker len kat ak...bukan nk hipokrit...tp 2 la ak...ak x nk layan die lebih sgt depan mak ak kecuali ak dh de ikatan yg sah ngn die...nnt mak ak ckp..."layan pakwe ckit punye bek, ngn adik2 kasar" ha 2 la reality nye...die x tau sbb pe..biar die x tau jnji ak tau pe ak wat....ak sje gak nk tgk die kate ape...mmg die start berkate2...smpai ak terbce " mcm x sy dulu...." walaupon ayat gantung tp ak phm ape die nk smpai kan....knp ye mesti nk ingat bende yg dh lpas?? ak nie spe kat die ye.....seyes ak terase gle..die x kenal ak..tp ske ckp bukan2 pasal ak...ko x tau ak leh layan ko lbh bek dr die..cume ak x nk mak ak ngate kat ak je..mcm die gak parent datang x nk msg ak..mgkin tkt mak die ngate die kan....sme je la...ak leh phm 2...ak x kaco die pown time die ngn parent die..sbb 2 mase tok family die...ak call just nk tau khabar je....sbb 2 la ak ckp die x kn fhm ak.....ssh nk fhm...yess!!! air mate la yg ubat sakit hati ak..yg basuh luke ak..die?? ape die wat...wat x tau je...btol la kate nurul...die mmg mcm x de perasaan.....tp ak ttp syg die...^_^ 

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cite kedua pasal hostel ak----------------> knp nk sme kan ak ngn die.....dak uitm x sme mcm kami....kami lebih terbatas x mcm uitm ape pown ko leh wat kan....ntah le bg ak n bg org len...dak2 uitm skunk x leh pkai...dh kre low dh stage dieorg nie...sbb sijil x laku....x tau la kan...tp 2 yg ak tgk la kebanyakkan dieorg ssh nk dpt keje....belum lg nasib ak......hehehe

ak ngadu bende yg ajk hostel ak wat yg mmg x masuk akal..salah ke...tp die ckp jgn masuk cmpur....ntah le....cite btol nye...dak ajk suh nek atas suh tukar bju formal stakat nk dok kat bwh hostel je n bg pengumaman yg x smpai 2 minit..tp dere ak n dak2 len mcm ape....bende leh bgtau bilik ke bilik..nk tukar bju bagai ape hal!! mau x angin ak...bukan ak je semua pown angin....ak sakit kpl trus ble dieorg wat mcm 2....ak yg skit die rase ke.....x awk x tau pe yg sy rase...awk tau slahkn sy je...ye mmg sy degil....ibu pown ckp mcm 2....tp degil sy atas keputusan je..bukan bende len.....ape yg sy rase slah kat mate sy....sy akan jd degil.....yg x leh lupe awk suh sy sedar diri...sorry awk...sy terlalu happy ngn awk smpai sy lupe diri spe sy.....thnks sbb ingat kan....awk jgn tnye sy knp sy len ye lpas nie..sbb awk dh ingat kan spe sy.....sy yg kotor...x layak tok bersuare pown....sy x sempurne...so x layak nk bersuare..thnks tau awk....awk dh wat sy nanges....x leh tdo malam ble ingat pe yg awk kte kat sy......sakit tau awk.....tp x pe...asalkan awk bhgia sy pown bhgia......

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sy ssh nk lupe ape yg awk ckp...sorry awk.....sorry sgt2....=(

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that girl.....yess me!!!!

one girl loves u

that girl loves u whole heartedly

she follows u around like a shadow everyday

that girl cries as she laughs

just how....how much more do i have to gaze at u alone

this love that came like the wind

this love like a beggar.....like a fool

if i continue this way, will u love me???

just come a little nearer...a little more 

if i take one step closer to u

then u take 2 step back 

i who love u is next to even now

that girl cries

that girls personality is very shy

so she learned how to laugh

that girl heart has many stones that she can't even tell her best friends

her heart is filled with scars

so that girl

u, she loved u

because u were the same way

yet another fool, yet another fool

can't u hug me before u go

i want to be loved

everyday in my heart

just in my heart

i shout and that girl is next to him even today

do u know that girl is me

u aren't doing this to me even though u know it??

u probably don't know, because u're fool

khas buat awk......^_^